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Childhood Adventures in Late-Night Reading

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Cecilia Lyra

Staff Writer

Cecilia Lyra holds a Master’s Degree in Banking and Financial Law from Boston University, but she recently bid adieu to her life as a lawyer and professor of law to become a full-time writer. She blames this heretical career move on her nine-year-old self, who was bitten by the reading bug and began to dream about the day when she, too, would write a book. Cecilia moved to Canada in 2016 and has since fallen in love with The Great White North, and begun to use the interrogative utterance “eh” at the end of sentences. She hopes to soon be able to update this bio with information on her debut novel. When she isn’t devouring books, blogging for Book Riot, or writing, Cecilia can be found drinking wine, eating chocolate, and snuggling with her son, an adorable English Bulldog named Babaganoush. Cecilia claims to be allergic to exercise, cigarette smoke, and people who confuse feelings with opinions. She has been told by multiple people that it is odd that she and her sister live in the same building, though she strongly believes that said people do not require free babysitting and must be oblivious to the epicurean wonders of sharing a vacuum cleaner. While she is frequently charged with being a complainer (a riotously unfair accusation!), Cecilia is blissfully aware of how lucky she is to live in the beautiful and diverse Toronto with her husband and their aforementioned son. Follow her on Twitter: @ceciliaclyra.

I am halfway through Robert Kimmel Smith’s Chocolate Fever when I hear a familiar, unsubtle ahem. Dad is an imposing man: when he clears his throat, everyone looks up.

Well, everyone except his seven-year-old bookworm daughter.

“What’s wrong with this scene?” he asks. His voice is low, but it has that unmistakable parent-talking-to-a-child ring to it.

A no-brainer: it’s past midnight on a school night. I should be asleep. Mom tucked my sister and me in hours ago—but only one of us fell asleep. I don’t have to look to my right to know that my sister is lying on her bed, doing just that. Every night, I watch in awe as she rests her head on her pink-and-white monogramed pillow and falls asleep. No tossing and turning. No looking up at the glow-in-the-dark stars in the ceiling for hours. No futile attempts at counting sheep. She just sleeps—and I watch, in awe.

There is no greater magic to an insomniac like me.

“What?” I say, feigning innocence.

My defense, I decide, will consist of a simple claim: I lost track of time. Or maybe, I have to return this book at the library tomorrow. I briefly consider blaming my sister’s snoring for keeping me up. A risky plan, I decide. She doesn’t snore.

Dad gives me his signature look: a smile-and-frown, all in the same expression. (It will take me years to realize that he pulled this off by smiling with his eyes and frowning with his lips. A testament to the duality that lived inside him—presumably—since birth.)

He walks over and sits on the foot of my bed.

“I’m not sleepy,” I say, guessing that he is about to launch into a lengthy speech about how I shouldn’t be reading at this hour. (Dad is known for his lengthy speeches.)

He doesn’t reply. Instead, he smiles and gestures to the reading lamp directly above my head. It isn’t on: I didn’t want to wake up my sister.

(Fine, I’ll confess: it isn’t for my sister’s benefit—Anna sleeps like a rock on Valium. I didn’t want to get caught reading at this hour. Mom might be fast asleep, but Dad is a night owl like me.)

“You’re not a cat,” he says, leaning in and turning on the lamp. “Your eyes can’t see properly if it’s dark.”

“The night light was on,” I say.

“The nightlight is not enough.” He taps the lamp again. “If you’re going to read, keep this on. You don’t want to strain your eyes, do you?”

I shake my head. I want to ask if he’ll tell Mom—if he does, she might make me put my books away before going to bed.

He studies the book’s cover. “Is it any good?”

“So far, yeah,” I say.

He glances over at my nightstand, where three other titles are neatly stacked: Freckle Juice by Judy Blume; Beezus and Ramona by Beverly Cleary, Sideways Stories from Wayside School by Louis Sachar. My standing record is one book per day. My school’s librarian, Ms. Beth, once asked me if I was trying to make it to The Guinness Book of World Records. I told her that if it wasn’t fiction, I wasn’t interested.

“When I was your age I had to hide my reading from my parents.” Dad’s voice is now slow and soft, like cold maple syrup making its way out of a glass jar. “I’d cover myself with three blankets and turn on a flashlight.”

“Did your parents ever catch you?”

His dark eyes shine with mischievous pride. “Never.”

I giggle, giddily sharing his triumph.

“Good night, paçoquinha.” He kisses my forehead.

“Good night, Dad.”

As he makes his way out of the room, I wait for him to tell me to put the book away and go to sleep.

He does no such thing.

The next day, Dad asks me if I’ve checked out a book from the library.

I nod. Mom is only a few feet away, talking on the phone. I wonder if he’s told her about my late-night reading. I want to ask him not to, but I don’t. I open my backpack and show him a copy of The Hundred Dresses by Eleanor Estes.

That night, I open that book and find a small piece of paper inside it, one that wasn’t there when Ms. Beth handed it to me hours before.

Remember: you’re not a cat. Turn the light on.

Don’t strain your eyes.

Love, Dad

I turn on my lamp to read.

I turn it on again the next day, and the day after that. And every time my fingers touch the switch, I smile and think of Dad.

It will be many years before I think of this day again and, when I do, I will realize that my dad wasn’t just looking out for my eyesight (or keeping a secret from my mom). He was endorsing my love of late-night reading, of losing myself in fiction, of books. It is a love I passed on to my sister. A love that fed my imagination, elevated my childhood, guided me into adolescence and adulthood. A love that provides me with both empathy and escape. A love that has allowed me to meet some of my best friends. A love that has shaped my career, my marriage, my life.

A love that defines me till this day.

My dad is no longer on this Earth. But every time I read at night, I turn on a light (be it an actual reading light or my iPad’s night light). And I feel him there with me.

And I thank him.

Thank you, Dad.